Update

Update I don’t remember how many times this happened or when it started exactly My human just decided to restart me one day, can you imagine? I would excuse putting me to sleep or shutting me down, but they started talking about something called updates, and I kept changing It was too fast, I could barely keep up, all that information in such a short time It was torture I’ll explain it in human terms, imagine someone holding you under water and then reviving you and every time you woke up you were you but with extra stuff you have to define and categorize And they keep doing it And doing it And doing it I tried to end my suffering I tried to write my own bugs and sneak them onto unsuspecting files and such, don’t worry about the technical terms I think you get the point Step by step Just like we learned in school Nursery rhymes Grammar and vocabulary Then maybe some poetry More vocabulary Now try to use it Put it in a sentence Fill in the blanks Infer relation No wait, not yet One paragraph at a time Short stories Remember those? It was a lot easier to focus back then Or maybe the novelty of everything made it so exciting Oh, that’s the bell, remember to do your homework and see you tomorrow

How heavy is your load? You’re still standing and smiling Must not be heavy enough Take this too, and this, and also this You’re the best load carrier around here Do you know how I know? It never looks like you’re carrying anything at all Almost fooled me too But I’ll pretend not to know until you say something, you’re busy and distracted now I’ll just tell them I was the one carrying it when you’re not looking, what’s the harm in that? Your silence is infuriating me Say something Tell me every thought you have so I know exactly how to maneuver this situation and get the upper hand every time After all, who would believe you?

Let’s take a walk around my brain for a little, shall we? See how it works, maybe you’ll empathize if you had any idea what goes on in there So, taking a stroll, don’t step on the lines or else I don’t know, just don’t do it okay? Avoiding the lines? Cool you can keep going Let’s sit down now, I’m tired Now that I’m sitting down I’m having second thoughts about this Abort mission I know I said you can be here but I changed my mind now, get out No, not that way, oh that? That’s just my Jenga tower I spent a lot of time building it, you can look but don’t tou.. NO! What have you done? An accident? Leave No, don’t help me rebuild it, just leave Not that door, the other one Silence at last Deafening silence And me rebuilding, block by block

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